# As good or as bad as any

I am the love I show

And the lies I tell

I am the mistakes I make

And the regret I feel

I am the goodness exhibited

And the inner turmoil of selfishness

I am the suppressed joy in the name of virtue

And the sudden bursts of forbidden passion

I am the confusion and chaos created

And the caution and advises given against

I am the villain of old women’s tales

And the omitted uncomfortable truth

I am the brightest of ideas and cherished aspirations

And the darkest of thoughts and lost consciences

I am the rebellious and the contradictory

And a perplexed being in this indifferent world

I am the lessons learnt and lessons taught

And a seed of doubt planted

I am everything you say I am

And everything else you do not wish to acknowledge

I am no God, nor any Demon

I am only human,

Just as much as anyone can hope to be.

​I can feel this dark object called distance trying to wedge in between us

Its too heavy to push away, 

Mostly because it was put there by time. 

I want to reach around it, to hug you

And tell you that nothing has changed.

But I can’t see you anymore or

Read your thoughts like before

I dont know what you are feeling

What if your ideas of me have changed?

Fear of rejection keeps me at bay

Making us strangers by day

Dont you slip away just yet

I love you too much to let go. Not yet. Not just yet.