oil paint – palette knife painting – 8″ x 8″
I am the love I show
And the lies I tell
I am the mistakes I make
And the regret I feel
I am the goodness exhibited
And the inner turmoil of selfishness
I am the suppressed joy in the name of virtue
And the sudden bursts of forbidden passion
I am the confusion and chaos created
And the caution and advises given against
I am the villain of old women’s tales
And the omitted uncomfortable truth
I am the brightest of ideas and cherished aspirations
And the darkest of thoughts and lost consciences
I am the rebellious and the contradictory
And a perplexed being in this indifferent world
I am the lessons learnt and lessons taught
And a seed of doubt planted
I am everything you say I am
And everything else you do not wish to acknowledge
I am no God, nor any Demon
I am only human,
Just as much as anyone can hope to be.
I can feel this dark object called distance trying to wedge in between us
Its too heavy to push away,
Mostly because it was put there by time.
I want to reach around it, to hug you
And tell you that nothing has changed.
But I can’t see you anymore or
Read your thoughts like before
I dont know what you are feeling
What if your ideas of me have changed?
Fear of rejection keeps me at bay
Making us strangers by day
Dont you slip away just yet
I love you too much to let go. Not yet. Not just yet.